Santa Baby

Perhaps I really should grow out of this pose, seeing how many ugly pictures it blessed me with LOL but unfortunately, the only expression with “life” my very amateur brain can think of right now.

I am so bored.

 

*trying hard to find topic* AND DOESN’T MY HAIR SHINE? God I totally love it after I got it done. That’s probably the only part of myself that I couldn’t wail at in those 3 days of work LOL. But now, it’s back to crap.

Anyway, I’m so bored these days that I wanna get those fancy hair tying stuff that produces fancy hairstyles at a blink hmmmmm… Or probably curl my hair! …. Just kidding.

 

Another thing, I have no idea why it irritates me so much these days when people say the OBVIOUS exact opposite of what they are doing/thinking.

It’s like slapping me across the face when you clutch a bag with RM500 worth of La Senza’s lingerie & declare you actually despise the brand & you would much prefer Xixili or something.

Okay, that is one lame example. Hmmm, how about like if a girl has full makeup on 24/7 & she complains to you that girls with thick makeup damn pretentious & demands why are they like that & thinks she’s wayyyy above them ._.

For the record, La Senza is still the best :P & the other day, I can’t believe my bff & I squealed & ran inside the store just to have a feel of the santarina collection LOL such perverts tsk tsk.

 

I’m in such a Christmas mood right now.

Santa Baby is playing in my head as I type ._.

Christmas at Pavilion :)

 

Another thing making me emo is my Christmas present, which I can’t get it till Chinese New Year :( It’s not really a Christmas present but what the hell, I’m totally treating it as one. No one gets a better santa than I do. I love my family. I feel very spoiled sometimes >.<

 

This video cracks me up :P Like I said, “Be good, boys… Seriously, be good!” XD

Work

Hello, I seriously have to stop neglecting this (increasingly dusty) part of my life here lol

A whole lot has happened since I last… promised to blog, heh :P

The long & short of it is that I finally begun working, which is about time as well, seeing how fast my bank account is emptied every single month. =.=

On the other hand, working freelance has not made me any richer, in fact, I might just very well have became poorer. FACT FACT. Well you see, with income, I spend more, which is… a whole lot more in a crazy out-of-control state so……. you get it, sigh.

 

Hehe me being hiao (& bored) with the 8-year old wallet that I used for 6 years. =.= I wish I was kidding.

This is half of my shopping pride & glory in less than a month. *NEW WALLET from topshop warehouse YAY!

A whole lot of makeup because working needs makeup, that’s one of the very important stuff I have learned working. The rest being:

A) MY MAKEUP SKILLS ARE CRAP

B) MY POSING SKILLS ARE CRAP

C) MY HAIR IS CRAP

D) MY EYEBROWS ARE CRAP

C) I LOOKED LIKE CRAP IN PHOTOGRAPHS

 

 

*WAILS :’(

 

 

If you somehow decide to tell me that I am putting myself down,

This is a great example of how I look like shit.

Even my boyfriend could not say something nice about it. so yeah. *smashes head on wall*

The worse thing is that I also believe I have another pic of equal value somewhere.

Note: This is completely face problem not photographer’s problem. In fact, I heard he’s one of the best photographers in Utar.

 

FAT ARMS!!!!!…. This is when my supervisor asked us to harass the IT guy in the same company & gleefully took a picture.

As you can see here, I am the most dangerous predator. =.=

And yes, his face was red LOL GOD I SWEAR I DID NOT DO ANYTHING WRONG.

 

Nicer… pictures because other people are in it LOL

 

ok that about sums it up.

During my last job as show girl at Malaysian International Game Show  / Teen Fest 2011, the day before the first day of work, I was down with the fever. On the first day of work, I have stomach cramps, my feet hurts like fuck (super high heels does shit to the untrained elephant legs) + the best thing ever is MY FUCKING CONTACT LENS IS SHITTY!

I opened a new pair of contacts lens as the old pair is already torn. HOW WAS I TO KNOW THIS SHIT WILL HAPPEN TO ME?? FML la seriously. I rather have worse stomach cramps & more painful feet than PAINFUL EYES. Plus, I had to be rushed to the 24hr clinic after work as my right eye was tearing up uncontrollably.

Nevertheless, since I was tied up with work for the 3-day job, I had to continue wearing the faulty pair of contact lens.

I hate how shit happens to me during important days.

 

On a much happier note, I bought half a dozen new clothes in the name of Chinese New Year (but as I type this down, as much as I want to believe myself, I highly doubt their virginity would be preserved till then)

 

 

Ending this post with another picture of me looking like shit.

Please enlighten me with how is it so easy for me to look like shit!

I’m so emo that I wanna sleep forever and forget about how shitty I look & reborn with a beautiful face ._.  (except it’s 7am and I’m not asleep yet = shittier face) Ugly cycle of shit T_T

LEGAL

FINALLY...................

SO OLD.

The best thing that happened to me after I turned 20?

Having the stupidest cutest boyfriend in the world. (who totally fails at giving surprises)

......

plus, buying a cake fit for a 3 year old.

so technically, I have yet to eat a birthday cake this year. HINTSSS

hmmm, I love cheese by the way... you know... just saying.... i mean sharing.

I have the best friends in the world too! you know who you are :P Thank you <3

okay so this is getting lame like a beauty pageant talk sort of thing so i would just say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

and end this post abruptly.

I shall blog more later! (isn't this line oh-so-familiar?)

I believe this is love

He texts me in the afternoon to tell me he just vomited blood.

 

and then he tells me in agony that his ribs hurt hours later.

 

 

 

I feel like jumping on the next bus to him.

Medical check-up is scheduled tomorrow. Please be alright, I love you so.

Unrefined

As we grow up, I guess it is inevitable that many of our more naïve perceptions changes with time.

Do you remember the younger uglier versions of us sitting back in our high school classroom constantly discussing about our future, exploring endless (then) possibilities of career choices and envisioning about our future partners. And many more rebellious acts like fighting with our parents, doing forbidden stuff, challenge the line that separates us from getting into trouble with law enforcements.

I used to think some things would never happen to me, to people around me, to my comfort circle of people. They seemed so far away, so indistinctive, so implausible. But yet so near & so imminent now.

I’m not sure what I’m lamenting right now but it’s just one of those days when such thoughts run through my mind and I have the strangest urge to put it down into words.

It’s not like I have seen much of the world. I have a delicate yet a very unadventurous childhood, which might explained why I had such a hard time fitting in most of the time.

I spent my time learning ballet & the piano (both of which didn’t last long), doing jigsaw puzzles, playing Barbie dolls, doing teatimes with my friends.

When I was 7, I had something that can be likened to a cultural shock when I was taken to my primary school. I couldn’t fit in. I got beaten by my very extremely strict teacher every day.

Enough of my past, I’ve been deviating from my point for quite some time now.

I guess what I really wanted to say is that,

No. Nothing happens the way I envisioned myself to be more than a decade ago. Nothing is really that far away.

Sometimes, I think that I might have lost myself all those years ago back in primary school. That’s the reason why I am still feeling unrefined and directionless despite my upcoming 21^st birthday.

Maybe I’m just feeling a teeny weeny bit depressed because of that stupid yearly thing that should mean less to me… but it means so much more now because it means I’ve been feeling lost and have been sleepwalking for 2.1 decades.

What does it mean? What does it really mean?

I remembered how many of us used to say if we would have a controlling boyfriend, walk away with style! But no, it doesn’t quite happen that way. I read one of a distant friend’s blog where she explores the possibility of a scenario which her husband (also imaginary) had an affair. What would she do? 5 years ago, I would have said fuck that bastard! Get a new one! She did too. What about now? Yes, we could have still done it. Fuck that heart that is still beating for him. Heartbroken? Yes, but we would still have lived. However, what if… what if you had a child with him? Would that still be that easy? Guess not. It makes it harder and worse (or better and easier, depends how you looked at it) if he came back on his knees begging for forgiveness. Could you find it in yourself despite all the anger and anguish to forgive your child’s father but also the cheap man slut?

There isn’t a definite and distinctive answer to that. It depends on you. However, the choices you decided to make? Make sure you could live with them throughout your life.

P.s Nothing of this magnitude has happened to me. My boyfriend is still faithful (I hope LOL) and I'm not depressed! Like I said, just a train of random thoughts, people.

guess the chunk game

dissembled!

it was just another day at work...

friday is like the most relaxed day + we could go off at 4 today!

(due to the upcoming street rally)

so i was leisurely facebooking with yi ru... going through pictures of reaaaally adorable kittens and puppies and figuring out when is harry potter premiering and reading about tomorrow's street rally stuff. oh and bitching about the printers at work.

that was until hafiz

(i am not sure whether this is how his name is supposed to spell LOL)

dragged me over to dissemble a suction pump.

that guy makes me feel that i have a sign which says

"please bully me"

plastered all over my forehead.

just when i walked over to him.

he said "just joking!"

...

anyway, dejected & bounded by duty, i started unscrewing while being oblivious to the fact that both MEN beside me were fully equipped with surgical mask & gloves.

awhile later, one of them handed me gloves and we continued dissembling.

it was not until some gooey yellow liquid started dripping when one of the MEN started exclaiming how i should totally wear a mask or else i'll get infected or worse that freaked me out so much that i yelled for yi ru to help me get it on.

all in good time, as i bend back down, the MEN practically ran away!

i looked down and this is what i saw.

let's just say the gooey yellow liquid was as pure as water compared to this.

this was our senior spraying disinfectant.

thank GOD!

i never have been so grateful at the sight and smell of disinfectant!

(it smells like guava, if i'm not mistaken)

the CHUNKY stuff smells reaaaaaaaaaaaaally bad.

like saliva from various people + rotten..... something-s.

maybe like rotten corpse.

(except that i never smelled one... TOUCH WOOD)

good god.

halfway through all of these filthy madness, another intern walked in holding a piece of bread and munching away happily.

all these while looking closely at the CHUNKS.

after that, he ate some sweets.

then, someone insisted that we wear aprons.

another intern was responsible for dressing us up as our hands are really filthy at that point.

like a bunch of horny hens, they instantly started a lengthy discussion about how the guy helped me with my apron.

sigh. really.

...

then, we "da bao"

and the little dissembling session ended right after i was dressed in an apron.

this leads me to a suspicion that the point of wearing an apron is...

to wear an apron.

now...

can someone tell me what on earth are those chunky stuff?

P.s in case you're wondering, i did asked... but someone said "oh no! don't ask!"

30 seconds later.. he claimed it to be "cendawan"

wth.

when we fight…

 

 

the dude bullies me at each opportunity he gets!

 

the other day i was having dinner with his friends and him when he started to whine like a lost kitten (still have no idea why people insist that he can crunch up their bones or whatever :P)  that he had nothing to do during the weekends.

naturally, his friends asked why didn’t he want to hang out with me?

 

that was it.

his golden chance to make me look bad.

 

“ohh… *huge earth-shaking sigh* aiya she has her own outings with her friends”

completed with a helpless kitten look.

 

 

his friend looked at him sympathetically

then turned around and sternly asked me why didn’t I include him in my weekend activities!

 

as i sat there mouth agape, with a blank mind, in my mind i was seething and cursing

damn oscar winner of the year!!

 

 

PLUS, guess who joined my meticulously planned night out with friends?

alright, to be fair, it was impromptu and his friends were the ones who suggested the exact same place………

but it’s like henry’s crime you know

 

“i have done the time, i might as well do the crime”

 

 

and it also doesn’t mean that i don’t get to whine about it!!

 

HAHAHAHA jk

glad to have him with me throughout the night! ♥

oh hi-hi

 

hai :D

 

erm… thought you’d miss me :P

 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

sat out w the girls & annoying them by acting sickly princessy is PRICELESS ♥

i said i’ll make it my profile pic but then again… i don have the guts to LOL (it’s apparently very obvious why HAHAHAHHAHAHAH so don ask!)

 

 

i should really  blog cuz i have sooo many pictures and so many funny things to talk about unfortunately at this point, i probably forgot much of everything :(

 

it’s not like i don wanna blog, i really do.

every morning i open my blog to click on links to other great blogs and i’m like my blog is so dead.

but weekdays are basically hard labour!

i’m not at that department yet but the thing is travelling and waking up early is so not my thing. thus, after getting back from WORK, i’m half dead.

… except when i need to do laundry, which i will totally announce it to qi & grumble more about my housemates for washing their clothes every single fucking day, throughout the whole ride home. (today)

 

weekends are fun fun fun LOL. damnit rebecca black!

i mean i have insufficient time to play, date my bf and sleep, thus blogging is the least of my concerns during weekends :P

 

OH & this is apparently very wrong…

 

very tired, a little sleep on friday night & plenty of giggles on saturday can lead you to do… erm things. :(

 

 

… i would have sworn vehemently i’m innocent except that i think it is rather “salah” myself after looking at the pictures FML.

 

er… awkward! thus the abrupt ending, BYE! ♥

Ouch

i am positive i never ever heard of someone falling down stairs in a cinema before.

like ever.

too bad it only happens to suckers like me.

FML. :(

i guess i owe it to myself to explain how it happened...

the cinema was dark when i was walking down along with THREE other people

and every step has a warning small blue light to guide people down the stairs...

so somehow or other one was not lit!

I DID ponder around that thought for the duration of what it took to descend 2 steps,

like was it unlit or is it a step with a bigger area?

*smacks head*

so being the idiot i was,

let's just say i had to put back on one of my shoes.

//

it was the pure hard honesty of what -someone- really thought of me that

instantly lead me to a horrifying realization that i have essentially spent more than a decade of my life successfully making a fool of

myself.

i feel so lost.

PC fair

for many years, i avoided klcc during pc fair… okay maybe i went klcc once during pc fair but i never went to the actual exhibition place. if i went, i think i went for a movie or something :/

however, this year…

(super blur cuz damn long din use my camera already)

how can you say no to this face? :p

too cute to… say no to :(

 

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA no idea why people keep telling me “what if he hits me? sure faint! want say something to protest also got no chance”

 

 

 

i presume there are only few things guys can go

 

well, basically this expression.

 

… perhaps more drool.

 

(okay fine, i might missed a lot.. but not like i’m gonna waste a day thinking about this)

1) hot girls with DD cups… actually then again, they do not really have to be hot. just the DD cups. or E. it just gets better.

2) FOOD (in the case of my bf)

3) sports: mostly basketball. or football.

4) DOTA. every guy who is a guy around my age had.. at some point been addicted to it.

5) PORN. what do you reckon when guys talk about having 1 TERA byte external hard disk in their wish list? & more talk of exchanging theirs for a few days or so.. like really.. you don’t know? but then again.. that kind of intersects with 1)

6)

no prize for guessing who had the “omgomgomgomgomg” face & dragged me across half of the room when he caught sight of the booth.

their slogan should be something like this:

 

ALTEC LANSING, 今日就让你身边的男人疯狂吧！

 

 

sigh. again. the signature “i’m-in-heaven” face :P

 

 

i think… i’m sort of forgotten at this point. fml.

 

damn girl kept pointing excitedly at this to her bf and stood smack in the middle of the exhibit! oh well.. speaking of which, he kept insisting to buy a speaker for me.

 

one of them looks something like this, but not exactly like this.

why do i need a speaker?!

 

i feel like.. speakers are… nice… but not having it, isn’t exactly a loss either.. or maybe because i’m not one for spending lots of money :P … but then again.. as i’m saying this, i feel a nagging sense of hypocrisy flowing from within… like what happened to that shopping trip… & various ones before that resulted in a collection of shoes, bags & clothes that… i honestly do not really know where to store. maybe i would post a picture of shoes and bags when i feel like it =.=

anyway.. the only possible reason i need a boing boing ball like this.. is because it’s…………….

boing boing.

 

 

& perhaps very squeezable & i can use it like

angie’s chicken stress reliever.

 

i know right? what a great invention. perhaps i can go find angie during finals & borrow it for a couple of dozens squeeze.

like..

“FUCK YOU DIGITAL, FUCK YOU FUCK YOUUU! how do you like it now huh? ” 

 

ahem, pardon my moment of insanity.. if we could kindly continue…

 

sony vaio… no offence to vaio users but i sometimes think vaio is like some dumb blonde with double Ds & very attention-seeking clothes but a little empty within. ://

 

♥

 

game addict :P angry bird! ♥

 

playing a 3D computer @.@ fucking cool, even i say so myself.

… no idea how to get the car up & moving though… =.=

 

so cute! *childhood obsession* … no.. wait. i wanted a race car that comes with a remote controller!

 

i like what they did with the lips thing.

 

from where we sat… KLCC :/

 

chubby & i ♥♥

i was wearing a shirt that says “RUNNING MAKES ME HOT”

HAHAHAHAHHAHA!

… to which he responded with:

“you got run one meh?”

 

… GOT! …….. about half a year ago :D

 

 

guys with their important businesses @.@ (& the perfect supportive gf HAHAHAHHAHA)

 

important businesses which.. at the end of it, involves finding a phone for 1 hour+ only for the person who lost it to miraculously discovered it was in her pocket all along! HAHAHAHA

but drunk what.. it happens la… hahaha no reason at all to feel paisei lah really. :)

 

& 7am at KFC trying out their new cheese burger! marvellous ♥ at the first bite!… at descending rate with each bite… it appears that only an uneven small portion is filled with cheese. ://

 

byebye ♥